Standing at the door of my house, I held my breath. Mike and Lily were still happily talking, but I didn't take out the key. I turned and crouched down and said to my son: “Mike，take Lily downstairs and find mommy some flowers, and come back when you find 3 different colors, okay?”. “Do you need the flowers for our home mommy? I can find you the most beautiful ones! ” Lily shouted and ran away quickly. “Wait for me! I will find one before you…” Mike followed her and left. I stood up, and waited until their footsteps disappeared. I stared at the door, and took out my key. Just then I sensed a smell, and it was very familiar. I almost couldn’t believe that he already found us, but I guess I would take things as they come. I opened the door, and saw a tall and skinny man standing in the middle of the living room. His skin was pale, and his blue eyes were full of sadness. The pain in his eyes made me forget to breath for a second. He wasn’t supposed to be here, he was still too weak to walk around like this. Yet here he is, just as I expected. “Jack, how have you been?” I closed the door, and asked softly. He frowned as I spoke, he looked skinner, but I could hear his rhythmic heartbeat, which showed that he recovered a lot. “Is that all you want to say to me, how have I been?” he stepped forward and reached out his hand, and his trembling fingers almost touched my face. I stepped aside and walked to the kitchen, “do you want something to drink? I’ll make you some tea. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see him froze in place. No one spoke anymore, and the room was extremely quiet except for the sound of boiling water

The steaming water made my vision a little blurry. I poured the tea and walked straight to the sofa. "Take a seat. " I said to him, “let me guess, is Diana sent by you?”. He finally came over and sat down across from me, "Yes, she works for me. I guessed that you probably need a new nanny, so I hired people looking for job offers for nannies. It took me so long to find you, why are you doing this Katherine? Do you have any idea how did I feel when you took the kids and disappear?". Although he tried to be calm, his eyes were red. His tone was full of grievance and sadness, and the more he spoke, the more excited he became. “Jack, I never meant to take the kids away from you,” I looked at his eyes, and said sincerely, “you will always be their dad, and you are always my family. If you want to check on them, you can come whenever you want, and I believe Diana will tell you about their daily life, too. It will be alright…”. His eyes were light up by my words, he leaned forward and held my hands tight, “then go home with me, we are still family, we can go back to old times…”. “You know we can’t,” I stopped him and took my hand out of his, “everything has changed, Jack…”. Perhaps my words were too cruel, and his body began to shake violently. He held his chest and began to cough continuously. I handed him the steaming tea and pat his back lightly for him. Honestly I didn’t know what to do, all I knew was that I could no longer give him futile hope. He was already so weak and hopeless, and I caused it all. His face was flushed from coughing, and tears were streaming from his eyes

He looked up at me and said in a weak voice, "Katherine, I'm begging you, don't do this to me. " He held me a piece of paper that he was holding tightly in his hand, it was the divorce paper I already sighed, “why are you leaving me… ”. I was silent, I didn't know what to say. Yes, this was obviously just a fake marriage, why did I insist on divorce? Once I even imagined to make this marriage real, to live with Jack forever, and to be his real wife. However, after the past few months, I realized that I simply could not respond to his love. He was willing to give me all he has, even his life, but he will never get the same in return. I could give him everything I have, but I couldn’t give him love. I didn’t love him. I held Jack's hand lightly and said to him, "You will always be Mike and Lily's dad, and you will always be part of my family. But I can't trap you with this marriage because I can't give it to you. what you really want…". Before I could finish, Jack threw my hand away and stood up. He shouted to me, "It's all your excuses, right? You're doing this for him, for Athan Buffay! Why do you treat me like this, I love you so much, but you don't care about me at all. Why? Why!". “Jack, it’s not what you think. I haven’t …” He looked like he was going to faint, and I tried to explain, but he's already torn the paper into pieces. “Save it, Katherine! I will never, ever allow you to just walk away from me!”. The door was slammed shut, and the loud noise shook the room. I closed my eyes in pain. Sorry, Jack, but I can't deceive myself, and I don't want to deceive you…